ThinkThoughts

I probably won't post on here much but I thought I'd get a blog account for the days I really want to just write stuff down. This happens a lot, mostly on public transport but much to my dismay, I have a shitty little phone and can't get internet to do so. So I'll have to make do on laptops for now. The reason for this blog-getting is not because I think people will actually give a shit about what I have to say, or even read it! I just felt like it. Wicked? Cool.

So this summer.. has been absolutely incredible! Definitely different to last year's and in many ways, slightly life changing. I'm in a position right now where almost everything I know has changed and I don't have a clue what's going to happen. What's been on my mind at the moment is how fast everyone's growing up. It's scaring me. It's weird when you think about things you used to do and places you used to go as a kid. Like a chapter in your life, those people are all going off to live their lives and leaving yours. Makes life seem way too temporary and I don't like how you can't just click your fingers and make everything back to normal again. Once it's gone, it's gone and you can't really get that part of it back. For me, everything is so uncertain but so long as I'm doing something, it's all good! I've been at home for the first time properly in months and all I want to do is get out of here and go write more songs. I've met so many amazing people this summer. Started off losing 7 friends of 5 years, whom I once considered my closest. I thought this summer would be truly crap and moped over it for days but now I've learnt that in life you can't really trust anyone. There will always be people who have something against you. Even if you thought they were your best friends, it can come out of nowhere at all. You just have to move on and make the best of it. I've met so many people and made so many memories that I wouldn't change a thing. If anything, losing old friends has made me gain perspective to man the fuck up and make new ones. I find myself these days wandering around train stations, meeting new people and thinking 'I'd never have had the guts to do this all by myself before, GO ME!' I guess it's just another step into the big bad world. I like it. :)