He told me I'd be ok, I told him to stick around. I took another toke of nicotine and watched the world crash down..

So there's been one question spinning round my head for a while now...



















Are lollipop people for real?

I wanna feel a car crash.

I wanna feel a capsize.

I wanna feel the bomb drop, the earth stop.

Til I'm satisfied.

I wanna feel a car crash.

Cause I'm dying on the inside.

I wanna let go and know.
That I'll be alright.

William Beckett knows.

It's a drunken midnight on the streets
Brightly dusted with a neon light
We duck behind the corner store
Smoke your smokes while I keep a watchful eye.

Right here, right now..

I hope before the night is through
One fumbled touch will finally hit the spot
You've got everything going for you
So I'll go for you with everything I've got.

Right here, the best days of our lives
Is this coincidence or a sign?

Call me a pessimist.

1. Cheese does not give you nightmares.

2. Lifehouse are the best band to fall asleep to. Listen to them and you will have pretty children.

3. I am still to finish watching The Last House On The Left. I have now attempted to watch it twice and have failed miserably. Third time lucky eh? 

4. E V E R Y O N E  is human. You think that some people in life have everything cracked and they seem to be flawless. They're not. They shit themselves about stuff too.

5. Things always feel a bit shit before they get better. I get this a lot. Sometimes the good takes its bloody time to come around but it does and will eventually. Sometimes one thing never does get resolved but something better or equally as brilliant will end up taking it's place.

6. I'm definitely a little bit psychic. Random things I can't remember have happened and it's freaked the shit out of me but I do remember dreaming the Queen's mother died and the next day she did. I also have this re-occuring dream that one day I will be famous... ;)

7. Fate and karma are possibly just 'big fat coincidences' and don't exist? It's just something I've been thinking. I'm a believer in fate and karma. I think. I'm just becoming a bit more open to thinking they could also be pure coincidence.

& 8. People chat absolute bollocks. You just have to decide whether you're gonna go along with it for the ride. I think everyone is a little bit in denial when it comes to falling for someone. You know in the end they'll probably fuck you over but it's nice sometimes to pretend it's all dandy for the sake of not worrying and being a lonely turd. HA! Or is that just me? Call me a pessimist but half the things people say or have ever said cannot be heart felt or ever truly meaningful. If they were, they would be with you now and wouldn't have ever let you even think about escaping their life in the first place.

La la la library!

Oh how you make me feel like I'm always being watched and always being loud.
I just want your internets. Mine broke. :(

Tonight

I refuse to go to bed til I've watched Uptown Girls for the millionth time.. Love this film.

ThinkThoughts

I probably won't post on here much but I thought I'd get a blog account for the days I really want to just write stuff down. This happens a lot, mostly on public transport but much to my dismay, I have a shitty little phone and can't get internet to do so. So I'll have to make do on laptops for now. The reason for this blog-getting is not because I think people will actually give a shit about what I have to say, or even read it! I just felt like it. Wicked? Cool.

So this summer.. has been absolutely incredible! Definitely different to last year's and in many ways, slightly life changing. I'm in a position right now where almost everything I know has changed and I don't have a clue what's going to happen. What's been on my mind at the moment is how fast everyone's growing up. It's scaring me. It's weird when you think about things you used to do and places you used to go as a kid. Like a chapter in your life, those people are all going off to live their lives and leaving yours. Makes life seem way too temporary and I don't like how you can't just click your fingers and make everything back to normal again. Once it's gone, it's gone and you can't really get that part of it back. For me, everything is so uncertain but so long as I'm doing something, it's all good! I've been at home for the first time properly in months and all I want to do is get out of here and go write more songs. I've met so many amazing people this summer. Started off losing 7 friends of 5 years, whom I once considered my closest. I thought this summer would be truly crap and moped over it for days but now I've learnt that in life you can't really trust anyone. There will always be people who have something against you. Even if you thought they were your best friends, it can come out of nowhere at all. You just have to move on and make the best of it. I've met so many people and made so many memories that I wouldn't change a thing. If anything, losing old friends has made me gain perspective to man the fuck up and make new ones. I find myself these days wandering around train stations, meeting new people and thinking 'I'd never have had the guts to do this all by myself before, GO ME!' I guess it's just another step into the big bad world. I like it. :)